我知道，我奇怪的！

您好！大家早上好！我要开始我的日日新鲜，真正的！:D 我会微笑，好像一切是正常的。Fighting!! :)

My extremely dumb self -_-'

So basically, this is how it goes. (again, i don't wanna be blurting out my feelings to anyone so I'm posting it on my weird blog/diary & I'm gonna be mixing it with some vernacular language)..
on Valentines Day, well the day before that, i kinda decided nga mag hatag ug letter niya. I wasn't even sure if ako e hatag kay I am not that type of person to do stuffs like that. & oh by the way, here's the first try for the letter, I had to make another one because i misspelled his name. lol. XD so yea, that is the first failed  letter: 

On Valentines Day, I asked my classmate(HS)/room mate to give it to him in whatever ways but I wasn't really sure if I would give it to him, really! ga duha2 ko. I was gonna get it back pero huli na ang lahat na ibigay na agad agad ang letter, well my classmate(HS)/room mate handed it to my other classmate in HS who was his friend and dorm mate. booooooom! and my world eventually exploded. I didn't put my name man pud, just to have him thinking who gave him that (hopefully no one would find out about this blog/diary) lol. XD anyways, so yea. I had to laugh at what I just did. He kept on asking daw kung from who it was, hahahaha! i hope he wouldn't know. But now, I received a news that somebody gave him chocolates on Valentines and they talked and even gi hatod pa niya somewhere ang girl. aaaweee. and he even told the girl nga mag tagad na sila sugod ato. aaaweee again. he is such a kind person! considering others' feelings. :D but then, I feel sooo.. I don't even know what I feel right now. It seems like I'm gonna blow up or smth. -_-' I don't have any right to feel angry, or anything. maybe just sad? haaaay. ambot! so that was God's purpose of letting me give the letter to him even if nag duha2 ko. cguro, God wanted me to get the same opportunity he gave to that girl who gave him chocolates. God just wanted to be even. But whatever plans he has for me and niya. I don't know. I just trust God. that's all! but now, pde mag maoy magpa ka OA. human na btaw ko ug assignment wala pud koi study'hanan. kay bsag nag crush2 ko tawn naniguro pud ko'g skwela. haha. pka sad sah ko ron -_-' kay murag mu boto na ako kasingkasing tungod ha iya. :'( oh vits. T______T

My feels -_-'

HOO! I'm blogging my feels today because basically non of my friends want to become an instant psychologist or something. someone started to really confuse my feels, well it all started with just that guy bringing my bag & made dungan with me pagpa uli during christmas break. it wasn't planned after all that we were gonna be making dungan. at first, all i thought was "oh wow he's kind!" "oh great my bag is heavy, can you just drop it & let me carry my own bag!" "nooo don't bring that, give it to meeeeee!!" "how can someone as handsome as that guy dad'on akong bag nga perting bugata??" lol. something like that. those words were like lurking in my brain while we were walking padong pier. & I was making faces & stuff. fffuuuuuu! >___<' & now when we see each other in the dorm, well he says & basically waves "HI" to me but then lately he really confuses me. it's like someone from my brain says yow heart can you beat for him, he's a super awesome guy with that really cool attitude, but then something is keeping me not to. eotteoke?? -_- for now, i decided not to follow what that stupid voice in my mind says & I am not letting any of my friends know this. It's just that it's embarrassing to fall for that someone who just carried my bag for me & talked with me for like 5 hours (lol. 4 hours at the fast raft and 1 hour waiting for the boat, teehheee-heee, i counted it all) it's just really confusing me. & I'm hoping to just forget about all of what happened & move on. (char!) I'm being vain today. -_-' dafuq!

Sincerely; ME :) ♥

but then, besides all that. A Haappy Haappy Birthday to my one & only jurieee. ;")

Merry Christmas everyone ♥

早晨好。我有一个艰难的一天！！

为我祈祷！为我祈祷！为我祈祷！为我祈祷！为我祈祷！为我祈祷！为我祈祷！